If you can't find a reason for it, that's not something anyone else can give you.

[they can make offers, they can give suggestions, but ultimately it's the person taking them who has to make something of that.]

But you keep going the same way you have been. You get up, you do the shit you have to do. Or if you really want to give up, then whatever, that's up to you.

But it's still running away if you do that, yeah? If you don't think you should be alive, then I think making yourself live anyway is as good a punishment as any. Make up for it by living and figuring out what's going on here.